Letting go.

It's 2011. Happy New Year!

I've been cleaning out in my apartment in anticipation of making a big move later this year (still a work in progress given the uncertain nature of my future career path, which I don't even want to think about at the moment). I came across my old journals and just spent the last hour reading my first one, which documents my life between grades 5 and part of grade 11. I had to laugh at most of it - and am so glad that my teenage years are well behind me. I would not go back even if I could do it over again, knowing what I know now.

There are a few more journals I've kept in the years since (and one that I use from time to time even now ... and should maybe turn to for a good cathartic experience) and I thought about reading through them ... but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I've packed them back in their box and put them away, but I am left thinking that maybe it is time, once and for all, to let go of my past and just get rid of them. Do I really need written evidence of the things I've thought and felt over the last 15+ years? If my memory fades, do I want to read those words and remember things that should be forgotten anyway? Perhaps my reluctance is a sign that I'm not willing to let go - my heart (my well-intentioned but often foolish heart) says "not yet."

But, in the spirit of moving on and de-cluttering my already cluttered home and life, rationality may win out - though I seem to have a hard time doing it, I am well overdue to just let go.

(And to do my thesis corrections.)

At the very least, it can wait until tomorrow morning.

In the meantime, I'd like to wish whoever still follows/lurks/stumbles upon this blog all the best for a prosperous and wonderful 2011. May you strive to achieve all you set out to do. I've already started by deleting my facebook applications. Except my year in statuses because I thought that was pretty cool (plus I wanted to show off all the cool things I did in 2010). But now, keeping with the theme of this post, I am moving on ...